
S.A.F.E. Project Co-Chairs Admiral Sandy and Mrs. Mary Winnefeld recently co-hosted an emotional and inspiring day with North Carolina parents and family members who lost someone to an opioid overdose. Convened by North Carolina Attorney General Josh Stein, the seven families gathered at the North Carolina Department of Justice to share their stories and efforts to unite their communities to combat the opioid epidemic.
As AG Stein rightly observed as he talked with the families, âIt ruins lives and breaks hearts.â
After each family shared their story of loss, Mary Winnefeld asked the one question that has multiple answers, and within them all, lessons learned:
âWhat do you wish you knew then that you know now?â
Looking Back
âWe were kind of naive to a lot of what was going on. [Our daughter] started self-medicating in high school with prescription medications, and I canât even begin to tell you all the medications that she was switched back and forth on. . . to this day, I do not think she was addicted to any one thingâshe was addicted to whatever made her feel better on any given day.â
âHe said, âMom, I would never stick a needle in my arm, I just wouldnât do it.â I just was a mom who wanted to believe that he wouldnât do that, and even if he did it this time he wouldnât do it the next time. He was in denial himself. He was powerful in his denials and I wanted to believe him so much. â
âI thought because my son played sports he was immune⊠I believe he was introduced to prescription pain pills by older athletes. They had the mindset that they were prescription pills and they are okay for you because they are a prescription.â
âWe were two people with a son who was helpless. We were helpless as well.â
âI did everything that I knew how to do at the time to try to help him.â
âYou canât lose a child for any reason without feeling that thereâs something you could have done. Knowing what you knew then, because you were a loving parent, you did everything that you could. The challenge for us is to teach, to give other parents the knowledge that they need so they donât end up like this.â
If I Could Do It All Over
âI know I had the idea âout of sight out of mind.â We have too much pride.â
âMothers are more nurturers. Dads, weâre âyouâve got to do this, youâve got to change.â And that was my role. I tell dads all the time, âYouâre fighting that battle and I know thatâs the way we are wired. Donât forget thatâs your child. Sometimes you just need to put your arms around his neck, and hug them and tell them that you love them.â That is probably my biggest regretâ
âIf I could do it all over, I would shake him and tell him that FENTANYL will go in drugs. The first time can be the last time. Fentanyl is a game changer. â
âI will always have guilt that i didnât do more to help him. The lesson Iâve learned is that I can only hope to prevent another father and mother, and grandparents, and sisters, from going through that.â
 âI finally understood addiction was a very powerful thing. I look back and know that he truly was an addict, that his brain chemistry changed and he had to have that drug. . . I didnât understand the power of that and that it can be treated as a medical condition.â
On Denial
âThe biggest thing was I didnât understand was addiction, I thought my son was making bad decisions. Iâm a recovering alcoholic. I should have understood.â
âHope is not a strategy. We know that.â
âI look back and know that he truly was an addict, that his brain chemistry changed and he had to have that drug. . .I didnât understand the power of that and that it can be treated as a medical condition. Stand up to denialâthat is my lesson learned.â
On Self Care
âJonathan was the youngest of our three sons. When I realized things were going on in his life I told him, âI will stand by you; Iâll get in the ditch with you.â I didnât know what in the world to do. Drugs were somewhere else, and not in my life. I knew I had to arm myself with learning. I joined Nar-Anon (Narcotics Anonymous) and thought I would learn about my son but I found out I was going to learn for me what I needed.â
âI enrolled myself in Al-Anon, because I did not know how to deal with his problems. I was a mess and trying to help him. I didnât know how to help him. I was doing all the âmomâ kind of things, like making rules he wasnât complying withâŠI said âI need to fix meâ, and try to figure out how to detach myself from him and help him at the same time.â
What We Know Now
âAs an educator, I know that it is much easier to prevent than it is to treat.â
âWe need to remove the stigma of the whole thing. This can happen in your family too.
âI have an 11-year-old â he knows the story about his cousins. Â We keep all medicine in a lock box. When he takes it, I explain why he takes it and when we stop, we talk about why he isnât taking it. I also do not flavor his medications. I donât want him to have it tasting like candy.â
âAdvocate for your child when they go to a physician or a doctor. You have rights. You have choices…Advocate when it comes to medications, educate yourselves because your doctor may not always know best.â
âThis is legacy building: I donât want my child remembered as a 26-year-old kid who struggled with addictions, who died of a drug overdose. Â I want my child remembered that his life had purpose. He was instrumental in motivating us to get in the game.â
Knowing what you knew then, because you were a loving parent, you did everything that you could. The challenge for us is to teach, to give other parents the knowledge that they need so they donât end up like this.Parent, North Carolina